Thursday, March 13, 2014

Make me empty...so I can be filled...

Where do I even start?  There are so many words jumbled in my mind and heart I can't seem to make heads or tails of them.  This week has been one of the most challenging of my life.  I have been forced to make decisions I never wanted to make and I had to step out in faith...in faith alone.  I have had to watch my children's hearts break anew. I have dried more tears than I ever hoped to see in a lifetime, especially from my children.  I have had my moments of just wanting to crawl into a hole and never come out.  It has been hard.  It just seems too hard, it hurts too much, I am so tired of failing. 

But through the hard....I truly haven't been alone.  God is faithful and He has been here and He is providing and blessing me more than I deserve.  Even when my heart doesn't feel it, I know it.  My heart is fallible but My Jesus is not.  I have cried tears of my own this week...some from the over flowing blessings and some from over flowing pain and I keep singing this song and praying for peace.
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Oh, give me back my joy again; you have broken me--now let me rejoice.
~Psalm 51:8


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8 comments:

Rebecca said...

I love you. I love you. You are not a failure. YOU'RE NOT! Sharing your pain...praying for you and your sweet children.

Your Southern Peach said...

I'm so sorry for what you're going through! God keeps his promises :)

Your Southern Peach said...

I'm so sorry for what you're going through! God keeps his promises :)

Sonia said...

Will continue to keep you in my prayers!

Elizabeth Quon said...

God is with you and will provide. We're lifting you and your sweet family in prayer. Big hugs!

Southern Lady said...

Praying for you still. -Carla

Lyndy said...

I wish there was a magic pill that I could give you to get you past the process to the “other side.” Unfortunately, there is not one. I can’t imagine how heartbreaking it is for you, to not only hurt for yourself but for your children. I may not be able to give you a magic pill; I can surely continue to pray for you and your family. Big hugs to you Michelle.

Sues said...

You are CERTAINLY no failure! Sending love & support!!!